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giving over, relinquishing control is not something that comes easy but i never had it anyway... surrender & slumber, inviting solutions without conditions letting carrion, hunters & four winds tear me asunder until only my bones remain with bits of skin flapping in the wind
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I can relate to these words. The need to control is always a challenge to face.
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It’s an amazingly huge hurdle. I’ve been trying to embrace some the Taoist concept of wei wu wei (action without action, effortless action or, as Alan Watts described it, “not forcing things”) for more than half of my life and I regularly catch myself trying to bend my world to my will. So, I am far from perfect about the practice. But, as the man said after declaring a witch turned him into a newt, “I[‘ve] got better”.
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Ugh, yes. You are right. Why do we cling so fiercely to some notion of control when it’s really an illusion?
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After recognizing that control is something we nearly never have, I try to relinquish it. But it grows difficult to think that way when others around you still cling to the idea that they maintain control over their lives and those things around them. It’s easy to slip into old, unskilled ways of thinking when it is everyplace.
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