From a reflection on some spirit-working I’ve been done, written in my private journal. Clarification and edits in square brackets:
I know that I am in the process of “unmaking” who I am, removing the masks I have worn — I am working on becoming my true self, whoever that is. […] In the process of unmaking, I am remaking. I know I want to be a “cord-cutter”, not so much from [as popularly used] “cable TV”, as much as from doing as Robert De Niro’s character, Mendoza, had happen for him in The Mission. I want to take those burdens and sins of my past, those weights I have carried with me to the top of the cliffs, and cut the rope free (by [me] or someone else) — leaving [those things] behind me to fall into the abyss and the mists below.