I had started off last weekend deciding I needed a break to refocus myself on several things, amongst them, writing goals (but that was a relatively minor consideration). I won’t bore folks with the details of my “deep contemplation”, in part because I am not entirely finished with that contemplative state, but suffice it to say that there was some “personal alchemy” going on in this excess of fat between my ears that I needed to, and still need to deal with. It’s a lifelong thing, so I don’t expect that will resolve anytime soon. If ever.
I’m bumping up the rest of the scheduled posts to today (two posts), with the exception of one that was scheduled before I took a not-quite week-long hiatus, as it has to do with a day of observation, hash tags and all.
As far as writing goes, I’m probably going to reduce the volume posted here (he said before posting a flurry of writing). I haven’t decided how I want to go about it, but I think the bulk of my daily writing will go private and I’ll chose the higher-quality pieces to share rather than treat this as my personal poetry journal, flaws and all. I’m trying to find a journaling app I like, but I really have been unsuccessful so far. WordPress is pretty much the best tool I’ve found that is both free and highly flexible, so it may be that I start up a private or viewer-restricted blog on the side for the more manic side of me that feels the need to write such volumes of tripe. I’ll take suggestions for other tools, but don’t be upset if I reject the suggestion for having already found it lacking, or for demanding some insanely costly subscription like the app I just mentioned a week or so ago that was a great tool, but definitely NOT worth $5/mo or $60/yr they just informed me they would be demanding in the coming months.
Other than writing, folks know that I’ve been deeply involved in returning to a more obviously pagan lifestyle after years of focusing mostly on Eastern systems (Taoism, Zen). I actually don’t like the word “pagan” for my approach towards these things, no more than I like the word “shamanism” as a replacement. But those are the words most people have become familiar with that are closest, so I’ll use them for the time being. I found myself at a crossroads and I needed to seriously consider where I am on this path, torn as I have been over the past few months on an approach. After this week of silent contemplation, I think I’ve got some more intuitive direction and guidance going for me after what has been a mentally and psychically noisy past six months or so. In other words, I now have a game plan, however nebulous that plan may be.
I’m off hiatus. Volumes will likely go down, quality go up, after this week. Looking for a journaling tool (preferably free). Digging in the dirt.