For a while, I was having this nagging sensation in the back of my head and I recently realized my subconscious brain was trying to tell me that understanding tarot cards, least in a generalized sense, for the purpose of writing a story. I have a story that has seem multiple iterations over the past twenty-plus years, none of which have ever met my satisfaction. I see these internal grumblings something to listen to because, while almost everyone I’ve ever met is surely smarter than I am on the conscious level, by subconscious is pretty savvy more often than not.
Posts with the “Tarot” flag in the title will be truncated after this paragraph so that you can quickly scroll past them in your feeds unless you are interested. I should point out that I am skeptical of tarot as a divination tool (as far as predictive divination goes), but I see them as having potentially high value as a tool for self-analysis on the archetypal/Jungian level. I have no interest in doing readings for others at this time, but I do welcome second opinions, should you wish to share them. And with that…
Query: What is my current state (general)?
Past | III Pentacles, reversed: Disharmony, misalignment, working alone
Present | IV Pentacles: Saving money, security, conservatism, scarcity, control.
Future | V Swords: Conflict, disagreements, competition, defeat, winning at all costs
[Definitions above are from biddytarot.com. I will be mixing my resources over time to see which I find most enlightening.]
Interpretation: (Past) It’s no great secret that I was messed up in the past with my alcoholism — I’ve never hid it. While I try not to be preachy (please call me out if I am), I recognize it is one of the smarter things I did going sober. Not that there are many other smart things I’ve done to choose from. However, the first two words are apt and, upon going sober, I adopted a hermitic existence for the better part of a decade. The card seems appropriate with all of those considerations.
(Present) I would be lying if I didn’t say I was nervous about the current financial situation. We’re doing some stocking up, but I wouldn’t call it hoarding. I’m nervous about the slowdown in work, as I have been on reduced hours since April and cut my 401k contributions to make up the difference in the paychecks. We’re watching money closely, probably closer than needed, but we’re being very conservative in case things go tits up with respect to coronavirus. I feel better now that things are going in the right direction with the country, but I’m still pinching pennies. No one ever accused me of being frugal, so it is a change.
(Future) This one is hard to interpret for me based on what I know. I think it is firmly in the realm of “let’s just see what happens”. But one thing, I’m one of those people loath to give up or lose a debate or an argument. I wonder if I need to watch myself there, it’s gotten me into deep shit in the past. So, I guess what I am saying is that now my attention is on that particular personality trait and I may be less apt to plant myself in a position in the future.
Interesting stuff. Like I said in my intro, I think tarot is better for drawing one’s attention to everyday personality traits and archetypes than it is for more standard uses.